Friday, January 31, 2014

Dementia is a Bitch

It all started with my uncle posting this picture with the comment, "sounds like something my dad would do." I smiled and felt reminiscent because, yeah it sounds just like Grandpa, but I wasn't prepared for my next thought, "I miss him"

You see, while Grandpa is physically with us, he has dementia and is not always mentally with us. 

When you have a relative with dementia, it feels like a form of death. The person you know and love disappears. They're body is still there, but you watch as their personality changes, everything that makes that person who they are in your mind, leaves. It's not Grandpa's face or figure I'll remember always, it's him choosing to play with the kids rather than have coffee with the adults, and building swings in the back yard, or the smart ass quibs he always had right at the tip of his tongue. Over the years, those things have slipped away. 

I can't help but feel sometimes like he has already died. I'm not sure if that will make it easier or harder to handle when he is gone, but there it is. 

Friday, January 3, 2014

Things I Did For Me

As I mentioned in my last post, 2013 was a year that I did a lot of things for myself. I bought a sewing/embroidery machine that cost the same as 1/2 a year's worth of rent for example. But one of the things I had the most fun with, and has been the most empowering has been the workshops with Cin City Burlesque. 

Well, for the first show I also forked out the extra cash and took advantage of a pre-show photo shoot. This was done by Jess W. Photography. The package included hair and make-up which was done by one of the lovely Cin City Burly Gals. Jess is an amazingly beautiful person with personality to match. I had so much fun chatting and giggling with these ladies before the show. 

If you ever have a chance to work with her I'd suggest that you do. The experience was everything I could have dreamed and more. You can find Jess here and get all the news from Cin City Burlesque here

Happy first Friday everyone! Should be back to sewing blogs soon!